At one time I was also a lover

At one time I was also a lover.
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At the end of Intermediate First Year and at the beginning of second year Dhaka University was a dream name. If you heard the name, there would have been a cold stream with a spade.
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Unfortunately, at the same time a love came and attacked me. The girl was not good to see. Normal like the other ten girls. There was not even a single sight for ten people. First love of life At first there was something going on. But, for many 3/4 months, I became like a lover. I look at her in class. Teaching a topic of a chapter in the class, checking for a topic will examine the topic, forget everything. He was the only one in the thought. I liked everything she did. Even I liked the bottle of Half Litter in his bag's sidepack.
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On the one hand, Dhaka University dream on another side. Where did I go? I used to suspect Majnu Laili so much that I did not have such love.
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Sometimes the girlfriend's phone waiting. The lover was in the hostel. Before saying something, I used to talk to my mother. I too believed the lover so much, I never suspected in my mind. However, after a few days of breakup, I knew that he was related to another son while having a relationship with me.
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The relationship took place in 6 months. With a sir of college, he has become very busy. Let's talk about what to do in chipa, to see gift exchange. I do not take it well. I asked if he wanted to avoid it. Then started getting more weight. Say, the mother said, Sir was calling. Makes study advice. Asked what the Daily Daily would suggest, would have been angry.
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One day I did not come to class. That day or the sari took leave that day. Later, I could learn from her friend, Sir-student went to Dianibari. The whole day was there. I do not have to understand. The head started walking around hearing this incident. What was happening around. I did not know anything On the same day, I returned home many phones. When I took the phone at 9am, I used to be very angry, she wanted to misunderstand. I did not want to understand. Then he told that he does not want to keep the relationship. Earlier, I did not get to say the situation.
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My number blocked, communication stopped from everywhere. After crossing the first two days, I became like a madman. When he called his roommate, he was scolded, his roommates even scolded me. Despite that I used to call I would have told you all Keep that relationship too. As much as can be tried, I have. She did not return. To talk face to face, they used to be very bad. Iain, threatened to feed my mother.
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Pre-test studies have come to see. We had two months left. These two months were completely abstract. I did not read, did not eat, did not bathe, I did not go to class. As if all had stopped. By then the university also forgot the words.
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Noman, Shamim, Alamin, Sohail are my closest friends in the area. They realized the matter and started to give me time. I used to stay together all day. Then it was a bit normal. Afterwards I realized and would not return. So, with a lot of persuasion I focused on study. HSC examinations were going on. After 4/5 months, I studied for the board examinations. + A + Got board scholarship I got a chance at Dhaka University. I got the opportunity to get admission in accounting department with 'C' Unit 277th.
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After getting the chance in the university, he wanted to return. I did not accept him and returned it with good use. Later she got married to her fourth lover. After one year of marriage, she wanted to return, she cried. I gave it back again. Still want to return. I do not abuse him. But, again and again. Although, I love him yet.
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Always do not have time one. Take the time, time will fix it all. Believe in yourself and let the time go. Good times will come when the bad times are gone.
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Amir Khasru
Freedom fighter Ziaur Rahman Hall,
University of Dhaka.